I think that so far my biggest achievement has been learning that I am okay by myself. It's really hard to realize this when you've identified yourself as a part of another person for so long. Before I was completely lost and had no idea what I wanted in life. I may not have figured that whole thing out yet but I'm on my way and I'm not spinning around in the dark anymore which is an improvement.
I'm sorry to those of you who had to listen to me and deal with me over the past little while, I was a mess and honestly some days I don't know how I managed to function most of the time. Thanks for putting up with me and I'm happy to say that I'm getting back to my normal, cynical self. Things were rough for awhile, I won't lie, more than a couple of times I wanted out but it's true what they say, that time heals all wounds.
My goal for this year is to find the things that make me happy, that was part of the reason I got out of my previous relationship. So far I am happier (after that really dark phase). I'm going to school, I'm taking care of myself, losing weight, doing the things that I want to do- the things I never got to do before because I was too busy focusing on another. I'm dating someone who makes me happy, we aren't a couple or even that serious at all, but he makes me smile and I'm glad to find someone that can do that. I have wonderful friends, a sweet little cat, and a good family and I'm realizing that those are the things that matter most, the simple things that we take for granted most of the time.
So here's to 2009: The Year of Katie and Celina. may we change things for the better and may our lives work out for the best!
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Boo!! Its going to be the year of Katie and Celina for sure, and no matter what happened this weekend, just know time heals, like you said.And working on ourselves is the most important thing. You are an awesome person and friend. I am so happy that we are living together and get to have a great year together!! I wouldnt have 2009 any other way!!
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